Drownin' In My Seat

Can you feel it, What I'm Sayin' ?

look, here it is, I ain't playin'

I'm drownin' here, in My seat

treadin' water - head to feet,

My attention seeker is INCOMPLETE!

I need to run, but I am still

fighting a battle of my own free will

Something to be said

goin' on in my crafty head

Goals are mistaken?

clearly I've been taken

'round and 'round, same ole shit

I've heard it all before, yet still here I sit.

Whatthefuck! to waste my time?

I just wanna end this 12 hour day - unwind !

I notice you, notice my asking

this practice is so terribly taxing

relative of theory

patience of practice

going through the process

I cut my losses

How long is 

this dessert storm

God please tell me, 

42 year is NOT the norm

Back then it was ok

they lived forever

I am nearing 31 of 198

there is pain in this pleasure

Something will break soon

I know it will

gotta' keep on pushin'

feed on the thrill

My kids keep me 

still

So I will sit

in my Louis seat

strapped down tight 

until my process is complete.