Begging Forgiveness

Please forgive me for any pain I have caused
The numbers are too high for my non-fiscal mind to log
For all the commitments, I made with my fork tongue
I cry to know I have hurt anyone.

It’s not ok to say, “I didn’t mean that”
When I’m sure in the moment, I guaranteed it as fact
I’m sorry for the promises I didn’t keep
When I said I would be on time
But got caught in a web of sleep
What about all the times that I forgot
My mercurial mind makes that happen a lot
Or the sarcasm wit that stems from my mouth
It’s a by-product of being raised in the south
Excuses excuses, I really have none
I take responsibility for hurting anyone

I wish I could take back all the gossip I know I spread
But like Mr. Peabody’s Apples, I can only look ahead
I can’t collect all those feathers Try try try as I might,
Until karma strikes back, and makes it right.
Maybe then I will learn, my lesson in part
About using my voice for something less than, spiritual wisdom to impart
(even when I think it’s art)

Moreover, My friends and neighbors
I hope you don’t think I ever second-guessed your favors
I take nothing for granted; I swear that it’s true
But I’m sure I have faulted in letting you know that I do

If you are reading this, for your forgiveness I request
I am in great debt to your friendship, and truly feel blessed

With that being said, for now at least
I wish you a Happy New Year, with your worries released
Abundance and blessing, miracles and wonders
HUGE Expanding vessel, desire that creates thunders
It’s here for the taking, beginning today
A new year is dawning, like a bountiful buffet
Make the most of it, Indulge in your sharing
Go ahead take risks and be very daring

Grab a hold of yourself

Making sense

Of all this nonsense
Sifting through the ego's dense
Trying to keep my face in reverent defense
Looking back remembering whence
I was young and dumb
Beating in time to my very own drum
Bible beaters everywhere
While I beat the brain, thinking they care
Exploring life from my perspective
Ignoring all the bullshit from a common collective
What to say when my kids get there
Hammering and clamoring to find their way through the scare
Scrabble haggle
Iranian battle
Who says it's all destruction
I choose to teach a peace influxion

Grab a hold of yourself

Watch what you say
Fighting for YOUR right, is not the way
Whatever it takes be brave, be strong
They will throw you curve balls to tell you you're wrong
Ignore their cry, be blind to their discombobulation
Tell them your messiah is coming, be fierce with jubilation
Dawning now
A new
Creation

Political Disaster

You must understand I have a language

I leave to you to comprehend

Sewing up gashes gushing

Poisons from the past

with needle and thread

Praying that it will last

Material fabrics that weave

Crisscrossing memories that won't leave

Malfunctioning stem cells replete

Begging to be complete

murky vodka muddled with toxic tears crying

manic pandamonium trying

Storms ablaze in islands haitian

swallowing up canes plantation

To capture the essence of mans weakest hour

Groping psychosis, enabling cower

Waiting for an Alaskan princess

To fly her tiara to the ice palace

With her come-fuck-me smile

Ear to ear, to fool u silly - even just for a little while

Republic of fools

Stockmarket drools

Greedy DNA over W's rules

Pioneering for the potential

Of our own mandella

To save our white asses, like an oprahella

Fairy godmother please find her the right shoe

We cannot endure the torture like Nazi Jews

I prefer my fantasy world to your hardened reality

crisscrossing wires

hardened normality

Cosmic Pinball

Damage undone

Wrapped around the arcaid of the universe

Like a pinball, floating through cosmic swirl

I rise above parallel pull, to knots unfurled

 

Dancing to the edge of the earth

For a momentous cry

Exhasperating with a relief of

Why

 

The earth's gravity can't keep me down

Nor can it's vast waters, make me drown

I am asking

Tirelessly

Are you grounded by

 

What's impossible, Evident of bliss

Ending ridiculous, unnerving lists

Calculations complete

Underneath the hot seat

 

I am scared to arrive unprepared

So easily tricked, taken off guard

Disillusioned with the trick of time

Sealing thunder like crime

 

the entire universe encapsulated at a single moment flash

within it’s seed, containing your destiny at last

in a second

it’

gone

fast

Conversations Within Myself

Are you what you say you are?
Has your illusion taken you too far?
Envelop me
I am your fear
I am your light and your darkness
Keep me near
Don't push me away

How much do you want
To go on pretending
That everything is perfect
And you think you are winning

How dare you desire
So little from me
I am here to give you everything you need,
but certainly not for free
You don't need to put your arms up
Just be concious, listen, be abrupt.

You have the gift, to see what's in front of you
So use it constructively, but be cautious on who
who you wage your war upon
Choose carefully which side you are on.
You will be tricked - don't forget
But that's not the point, just get what you get.

Stop!
playing!
games with yourself
It's time to reveal
your true inner wealth

Politics at its FINEST

WINNER OF THE BRAND NEW IPOD NANO IS ....

The Emerald City - Not Oz.

I'm not really sure what happened, I began to retreat
But I knew then I was returning, to the complete
It all started to flood, I got really scared
Transported, immediately I felt unprepared

Then instantly it happened
I was transported
almost telepathically, not thwarted
All of the stress and anxiety away
my soul began a journey
For a new day

There, in the emerald city I was
6000 feet above
flood awash down below
I was sparred the drama, that I know

The palace was lofty
Eden it felt like, angels whispering softly
Buildings made of jade
Thankful for the moment, I stopped and I prayed

I took a look around
I was alone, not a human sound
the gardens spoke an eloquent secret treat
"Head up the hill, and you'll find your seat"

When I found that special throne
I knew immediately, I was not alone
I waited patiently, for someone to appear
Felt his presence, calmed by fear

Out of nowhere, He materialized
to take my hand in marriage
suddenly, all the paperclips serialized
Turning around together, we walked to the edge
looked out over the horizon, and jumped off the ledge
secured by a parachute, of angels wings
we landed into the "real word"
with everything that brings

It's all said and done
I can be present now,
together
as
one

Last Saw You ..

Last saw you
Young little girl
Bright red aura
Fiery fierce persona
Then Tough exterior
Now so superior

The urban mom
The dutiful wife
A spiriual force
Who's transformed her life

Seniorita superior
I am thankful
To be in your life
Evermore

Your beautiful family
Inspires me greatly
The love you give them
Unconditional innately

Your battles proven
From whenever then
Scars removeth, from any old sin

Free coffee and doghnuts
That's all it took
Dolly didn't know,
That would be the hook

You are a woman now
Truthful and bright
Now go forth fully
Reveal your light

Fear not what, you can't see
Your greatness is certain, just trust me.

She ..

See the Light of a single frame

into my childhood, I place no blame

I was blessed with so much love and compassion

Given so much, everything in fashion

Nintendo was born

waterbed worn

the 80's was glam

and I was a ham

Music was, my drug of choice

as I started to bloom, I knew I liked boy's

Many artist's blasted, through my ghettos

but Madonna was serving, while I pranced in mom's stilettos

She will never know, She made me who I am

remembering the moments, from my brain I cram

All I can, from lucky star

Madonna gave me wings, and brought me really far

when things got somber, dull and grim

she taught me to jump, out on a whim

to take some chances, follow my heart

Do what it takes, to do my part 

So I followed in her footsteps

when I was nineteen

I moved to New York

to follow my dream

Something to laugh at, certainly not

I went through hell, to get where I got

In those moments, I promised to try

Madonna did it, she learned to fly

She gave me wings, when I wanted to cry

and taught me to ask questions, always ask why?

Not to settle, for anything less

be who I am, with 

absolutely no regrets

The Universal Laws, have led me here

Thank God I know enough, to have a healthy dose of fear

I am ready now, to take my seat

Next to Madonna, so turn up the heat.

Change the world, returning to one

No other priority, thought many will shun

The Journey Has Just Begun

Fast Forward to Yesterday

Fast forward to yesterday
Who were these souls that came into my life
For better or worse, safety or strife
Fighting for a future
I never knew existed
Gabriel is and always was secretly enlisted
Watching over in perfection, hovering around
Preparing triumphant prophetic sound
Brought me to this day
I am sitting here, seems so far away
Something knew, time traveler, well ago
When darkness wouldn't cease to let go
Spirit was not just some party game
But it did came in pill form, I was not to blame
We knew who it was, sitting there in front of me
I was just as much his process even if he could not see
Relentless lust or Ecstasy crush
Nice to know now, there was no need to rush
That was a while
In two thousand instants, beguile
Before falling towers, or Italian rose buds

when the Brady's were reinvented 

where bath tubs in kitchen was rented

I hope 

to demystify 

that urban past

take from what I learned

and let go

at last.

Just a drip

Just 

a

drip 

in the bucket

second shift

a joy luck it

Inevitable bliss

awaits you

a patient wish

sacrifice

something you don't have

to make others happy

for 

who 

do

you 

live?

I Am

I am
Hanging on from my heartstrings
Flying high on love wings.
Feeling ecstacy on high
God knows reasons why.

All right here

As I begin 

to Fly

I am
Found.
Practically there
What about my words
Are forceful
Unclear?

I am
Assured of my stance
True and pragmatic
Euphoric trance
Feeling it fierce
Poised for
Circumstance
Becoming
Self

Facing Facts

I found some old journals, I used to keep
They contained secrets of my life, all unfinished
incomplete
Notes and scribbles, occupied me for hours
It’s contents weren’t exactly, roses and flowers
I kept myself awake
fighting desperately
an impatient ache
Whispering to my heart
Focused fully
The feeling began to start
Urbania in lust
A time before
I knew there was such
Stories upon stories
Keeping track
of then
Finding comfort from perils
Bound by the heart
Digging up the weeds from the start
Day one.

August 31, 1976 12:49AM

To be continued ..

Psychobabble Spiritualis

Timing is everything. Supposedly so .
Why do I find it difficult to just let go
Finding something, just for you
Knowing that it will come, you don’t know who
Following a truth, that many have lead before
Being present in the moment, persevering the bore

Know that it is right
Know that it is proven
Stick tight to the plan
Before you go cruisin

What I can not see
I am limited by
So I have to trust what is there
Even when it goes awry

Fallen Angels
Naked Saints
Glowing Porsches
Glamour it paints

Tragedy is comedy
Comedy is dramady
Paradoxal shift in conciousness
Prosthetic harmony

Something really so much more
Simple as walking, through a door
Pass through the post, say’s it’s word,
Through another dimension, how fucking absurd

I’ve heard crazier things
I have to admit
I’ve even sacrificed a chicken,
If you believe that shit.

42 letters
72 names
destroying ego’s
crazy mindgames.

It’s nuts though
You laugh and kackle
You’ve read it all
And you think its debacle
But the truth is
This shit works
I know first hand, with all it’s quirks
Had I chosen another direction
I wouldn’t be here, as I formentioned.

... Dream's of Flying

Finally. 

I have been waiting for the moment to return. 

I lay in alpha-state, wheel's churn

I used to go there a lot 

A lot.  and regularly, sometimes not.

There is something about when it takes place

effortlessly usually, with such grace

I just put my arm's out to my side

point my feet, look up and take flight

momentum - upwards lift

never second guessing my natural born gift

It's a good start

to a new year

filled with empowerment, defying gravity 

and eliminating fear.

Rise up

above my stars

no slave to the pull

cosmic wars.